"I recalled one of father’s stories: A man held a bar mitzvah celebration for his son and invited guests, and they came to celebrate and drink and he asked his son to climb up into the loft and bring down a cask of wine, and the boy climbed up, was bitten by a snake, and didn’t return. The man climbed up to see what had happened and saw his son lying dead, and he climbed down and ate and drank with his guests and they praised the boy and in the end asked, When is the celebration? You came to celebrate, he said, and now you are mourners. My father liked that story and the pain in my foot was appropriate to the memory."
I’m not a big Rilo Kiley fan but I always loved Jenny Lewis as a tween and teen actor. I’m kind of embarrassed that I only just watched Foxfire for the first time. In spite of a few big nerd chill moments and complete lack of plausibility it is pretty spectacular. So much amazing in this movie.
Dev showed me this funny video today. Never noticed this when I watched TNG years ago. Reminds me of a passage from Eileen Myles’ Inferno in which she’s describing a dude the early morning after. She wrote, “You could tell he just enjoyed being a man in a body.” That book had a lot of neat little passages inside of longer confusion. I see a TNG marathon in my future.
cutting onions for a late lunch for one in a lighter kitchen. in a house missing half its possessions. this song comes blasting on the stereo. it’s too real. i stop cutting and think this is the moment i will finally lose it. remembering first the song of my first breakup over a decade ago and the moment that song helped that one sink in for me. i try to squeeze out my onion tears but they linger at the corners of my eyes and my breath stays caught somewhere inside my body. i capture a mind picture of every detail of this moment to stay with me for another decade. your dad came this morning to get his fishing poles and left me with a tender hug.
What’s behind the song “Tunic (Song for Karen),” from Sonic Youth’s 1990 album, Goo? I wanted to put Karen Carpenter [who died of anorexia] up in heaven playing drums and being happy. This whole thing about teenage girls cutting themselves and that being associated with anorexia and girls being conditioned to having such a big desire to please – I’m just curious, because of Coco, at what point do girls start getting their sense of self-worth and [need to please] people, and why don’t they have anything else?